I cut my hair a bit and I think I like it. It feels much healthier. I keep turning on movies and only watching the beginning and then turning on another one. I'm bored. I think I am going to start a garden. I need fresh air more and a hobby, I guess. I don't know anything about gardening but I'll read up on it online and start small. It just seems nice and nothing else really does these days. I've also got to stop smoking. I want to be healthy and feel clean inside. About my hair.. the reason I like it is because of how it feels. I think that probably matters more than how it looks. I don't have to look at it all day, I have to feel it. I feel lighter and more girly and fresh. I want to start focusing on doing things that also give me that feeling.
I was thinking about how I am impulsive when I am depressed. I buy dogs without thinking it through and get tattooed and cut and dye my hair. I've done much stupider things like cheating too. I want to learn to be content. I did just cut my hair today, but I think, for once, it wasn't an impulsive thing. It was therapeutic actually. I did it for the right reasons lol.. that sounds lame but I had awful split ends and needed to cut it. I usually do it because I think I need a makeover or whatever.
Hank just woke up and he's pissed off so I better get off here.
Just typing for a minute has made me feel better.
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