Feeling really broken down lately. I'm tired of my world. I need a new perspective or something.
It's weird how comforting I find it looking into other people's lives on Facebook...
but then I feel really empty afterwards. I don't know. I have all that I need to have the best life but I feel like I am not taking advantage of it and being the best that I can.
I think I am going to let the internet get shut off. I don't need it and I am so much happier when I don't have it. I fill my days better and feel better at the end of the day.
I need to quit comparing my life to other people's. It's pointless. I should just be living mine. It's sad that I can't just control how often I get online but I can't so I think it's time to let it go. Being bored is good for me because it gets me off my ass and living. When I have the internet, I just sit down and try to find something to do on the computer and my day passes without feeling like I've done anything.
I need to stop smoking and staying up all night too.
Time to make some real changes! Not just for myself but for Michael and the kids. I haven't been my best for them. It makes me feel really guilty when I let myself think about it. No more..
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